I'm back with new updates ...

I haven't posted in a really long time and a lot changed since then. First of all I graduated high school * yay to me * . Although things haven't been going the way I planned them to be but * alhamdullilah *  still i'm happy an thankful  for were I am right now . Moving on I really missed writing and just taking the time to create a single blogpost. Therefore, I decided to spice things up on my blog and start a new series called " Tea time with Maryam ". Were every thursday posting a new post were it will mostly be me  rambling about life, school, weight loss and etc. One of my new goals is also to start doing monthly favourites whether it was beauty or non beauty related favourites.
Lately I've been feeling so lost and I really hope these commitments will help me spice my life a bit and start something new.

- M

Don't ever call a girl fat

It actually really hurts when someone calls you fat.I am really fat & i can see that you dont have to remind me of my insecurities who are you to criticise me ?

I've been called fat from my parents, siblings and even really young kids and guess who else my teachers. I am not saying that am not fat 

stop pointing out its just kills me.I just hate our community they just point out the bad in you and forget all about the good things.Maybe am the only one sensitive about this subject and it really irritates me when someone talks with me about it.I dont want to feel this way anymore that everyone is staring at me although no one is.

am already ashamed of myself and people are making it worse. Like for example once i wrote on am agenda that if i reached my goal weight by january1 i'll buy me a Moschino belt then my best friend took my agenda and added "if you reach your goal weight" its like my own best friend is not believing in me or not supporting me or whatever its not that i care about her note it just hurts coming form my best friends you know. 

I always feel better when i write whats bugging me it just make me feel relaxed.its like a stress ball i guess. 

-M

Mini makeup Haul w/swatches

Sorry I haven't updated for a while I had exams and now am finally on my spring break and am back with a collective mini haul ..so during my exams period the only way to reveal the stress was shopping online I bought couple beauty products  from Nordstrom that have been eyeing for a while so let's get started !  so i bought 3 NARS products and 1 mac lipstick 

                                                              NARS casino bronzer

Casino bronzer is dark rich brown with golden shimmers that just give you a sun kissed look  and its      really good for contouring since the gold shimmer is not that obvious
                                                       

   NARS penny lane cream blush

                          P.S i forgot to take a picture of penny lane alone so i just googled it 

Penny Lane cream blush is a nice pink everyday blush. it looks like you're blushing or just came from the beach (not sun burned just like when you're coming back from a sunny area )                                             
                                                            AND HERE ARE SOME SWATCHES OF THEM  
                                                          
                                                                                          without flash 
     

                                                                        
                                                                                               with flash 

                                      as you can see from the swatches the shimmer in the bronzer do not show at all 


                                              
                                                        NARS dressed to kill lipstick

Nars "Dressed to kill" lipstick its from there 2013 Summer/Spring collection. as my first NARS lipstick i was really shocked when i received it it has really huge chunks of gold glitter and the consistency feels weird (maybe because of the glitter ) but over all the lipstick's color is really beautiful maybe with the right makeup look.

                                                               mac lipstick in "brave"
                                                               

MAC "brave" lipstick is that pinky "my lips but better " color i really loved it with my everyday makeup look i feel like it just goes with any makeup look.

and finally their swatches

without flash 

with flash 

so thats my mini haul i was really excited when i received them but i was really disappointed with some  and some just mad my day anyways if you want  a review of the products just comment below and i'll do it.



-M

MIRRORS -SAM TSUI & COVER !!!

It makes me proud rereading my blog. I've never done something big like this its like exposing  my self to the world and am loving it.I really want to write a lot but i actually have nothing to say. Am searching for any exciting moment to write about but naaah it's ain't working. So because of that i decided to share with you my favorite song.i've been listening to this song non stop for the past 3 days maybe its mirror by Justin tembirlake but i found a better version of the song its a cover by the awesome sam tsui & kurt Schneider. ahh its just the best !!!why am i still talking ? just listen 

Enjoy it 

-M

Weight loss update

Things have been tough these days I've been binging a lot and gaining weight *say whattt* ya I am and am really not happy about it .. As every teenage girl or at least in our generation super models (aka  Victoria secret models) are our role models. I actually feel sorry for them starving themselves  to death working out like a machine is not a role model for our generation and the upcoming ones as I've seen and read the total of anorexic people in the world is increasing and even really young children are starting to starve them selves to death and take care of their health which is good but they're doing it the wrong way "obviously" - that was so off topic what I was talking about is I realised that I have to stop all of this and try again. I don't want to lose a lot of weight and regain it again ( and thats exactly what am doing for the past year ) am destroying my  own body like that. i already have stretch marks i dont know what will happen to them when i lose the excess weight but at least i'll try to prevent them from increasing in my body by losing weight. to be honest its pretty hard for me to go back on track, with all those delicious food every where and my mom's cooking it just kills me. i start my day normal am fully motivated to start am going to the kitchen to make a green detoxing smoothie or just grab anything healthy my mom comes to me and tells me " maryam i just made some of you favorite pancakes with maple syrup " thats when i change my mind and everything evaporates from my brain. My only motivation and what's keeping me going is my graduation and prom !! i really want too look gorgeous and healthy not fat and over weight. 

Anyways that was a long introduction lets get to the point. I decided to document it on my blog I guess this will help me with my progress and truly I was inspired by a lot of weight loss bloggers anyways I decide to blog once a week I'll put my weight measurements and everything !! I guess that's better for me I'll start by now and every week I'll update you guys.  

here's my plans 

current weight : 75kg

goal wight 1 :70kg

goal weight 2 :67kg

goal weight 3: 64kg

goal weight 4:60kg

goal weight 5:58 kg

ND MY ULTIMATE GOAL WEIGH IS : 55kg

 i decided to divide it to mini goals because i feel its going to be easer to achieve ( i hope so) and it sounds more realistic. I really want to succeed this time and I hope I do ..

Tell me about your weightloss storyy if you have one or what's you're struggling from and we mihht help each other
Take care
-M

P.S i'll add my measurements later i dont have them now. 

Is it worth it ?

Last year  "Hermes" bags were really popular between celebrities and the ladies everywhere and i also  have seen a lot of ladies carry it in my city.
Hermes is popular with its "birkin" and "kelly" bags . They're big and they come in different sizes and colors. Hermes bags can be customized (who doesn't want her bag to customized) and i don't think they're going to run out of style.

             Kim Kardashian carries her black 35cm birkin with Equipment stars blouse and
             christian louboutin suede fushia platform.

                                       Chiarra Ferragni carries her baby pinks hermes birkin

Personally,whether a celebrity carried this bag or not i really don't care since i really love "HERMES" bags especially the birkin but their prices are rising so quickly which makes them less affordable.Maybe one day i'll own one  since i don't think they're going to run out of style anytime soon so why not i splurge on a bag that would last me years and years.

A Little Bit About Me

My name is Maryam Al Marri am 17 years old from dubai.Am so interested in fashion, beauty,and health and fitness and i guess that what i will be blogging about.Since i want to be a journalist blogging is a really good start for me and it will help me a lot with my future career.I have read a lot of blogs before "mostly fashion and beauty" and believe me starting one is kind of hard for me so bare with me.
so i guess these 4 lines sums up everything about me and i'll try to blog more often.

- Maryam